Glasses (part 2)

This is a continuation of my last post, so if you haven’t read that one yet, you might want to start there. 🙂

So a couple of weeks after getting my new glasses I started to notice a low-level anger in my heart. I was getting snappy with J more than normal and was just generally grumpy. After a few days of reflecting on it, I realized that I was mad that no one had noticed that I had gotten new glasses. My first thought was, “well that seems sort of petty, doesn’t it?”

So I sat with that idea for a few days and came to a deeper realization. The reason I was mad and upset was that I am not around any group of people regularly enough for them to notice that I had new glasses. In the past, my work has been a part of a team of people that I spent time around almost daily. It was the kind environment that felt like extended family.

But my current work has me largely working alone in my office either reading or writing on the computer. I know that when class teaching starts that will change some, but it still feels like I’m pretty alone in my work. For those of you who know me, you might think, “hey, he is an introvert so why is working alone such a problem?” Well, I’ve known for some time that I’m more of a “social introvert”. I may get refreshment from solitude, but I need a certain amount of people in my life to feel whole.

Over the summer I took the Strengths Finder test and discovered that my number one strength is called Connectivity. In a nutshell it means that more than anything I want to do work that I really believe in with people that I really like. That, as they say, might explain a few things. I know that this year of work is only a “season” and won’t last forever. But it does make me wonder how long I can do what I’m doing if it doesn’t involve other people on a regular basis.

In the mean time, I realize that I need to take the initiative to have people in my life more often. So if I ask you to have lunch with me on a regular basis, don’t be too surprised.

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3 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Ryan on October 17, 2009 at 1:36 am

    Wish I could be there to get asked, dude.

    Reply

  2. Posted by Kelly on October 20, 2009 at 3:16 am

    I wish I could be around you! We are in the same boat…transition city + desire to be connected! Good luck getting back in the groove. It was really lovely to see you and I’m digging the blog posts.

    Reply

  3. It sounds like everyone’s going through so much transition these days! Hope you & Jenni are doing well and that things are going smoothly for the Manhattan EH site.

    Reply

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